lord almighty.
i think that im reverting back to the way i was in elementary school. i am in my head all the time and most people think im an angry creep and dislike me. i think i like it this way the best. i really dont care about social status. im not sure i ever have.
i wrote a list today it was words i thought of when i looked around the room and what i associated with each word.

sonic
vengence
pattern
lusty
codename
borealis
shes-a-slut
confiscate
boner
knee high
fasination
pointy
cigar
lipstick
dead skin
shaking
smoking
blakened
sickly
volume
panty
crackheads
knitting
dull
loser
power
testosterone
kidding
honest
painful
sadist
cotton
pilgrim
lunchmeat
frenchtoast
texas
sleazy
truckstop
old man
selfish
cold hands
sweat stains
purple
new car
old house
familiar smells
cold coffee
dry hair
easy
numb
mohawk
meaty
bastard
stole-my-chair
conhead
bad tv


preeeettty mediocre but it wasnt supposed to be good.